Tuesday, May 27, 2008

This post was blank.

does God ever run out of mana?

can anybody challenge my concept of Time?

will i escape the imminent complacency trap?

when is there going to be a lan party?

what is the probablity of there being a lan party any time soon?

how many questions will there be?

is it worth driving to uni when petrol prices are so steep? NB: takes me 20min (25 if i carpool with tim/sid), and there are two instances of peak hour traffic: tues morning and thurs afternoon

(dota! brb might think of more questions)

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Friday, May 23, 2008

I don't understand

Oh my goodness i just have to rant right now. Seriously i am soo anoyed and it's soo strange because i don't even know why im anoyed or whatever and yeh. I mean... i just want to say.. i can't stand moody people i really can't, it just doesn't work and yeh here are some reasons why.. I find it uncomfortable and yeh thats just me i don't know.. i can't speak for everyone else but i find it just awkward to do anything and im not sure what to say or do it just makes me uncomfortable. See theres a difference between being sad and unhappy but moody is just totally another thing altogether, i mean i really prefer it if people just get angry because at lease like u know where u kinda stand. Im really sincerly confused at these moments.... i don't know what to say, if i talk too little it's just awful silence, if i talk a bit more i might trigger something even more it's horrible! arghh.. what to do... Sometimes i wish i can just fly away from all sorts of problems and such and sometimes i wish i always had the right things to say to any response that someone says to me... sigh...

It's a strange feeling... i don't know how i feel anyone honestly.. u know the feeling where you just don't understand so much.... a bit like chem... but yeh..
i don't understand
i don't understand

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Monday, May 19, 2008

Truth(s)?

Truth: One or many?

Okay, so we had an interesting conversation during our late night out. I’ll start by re-acting the scenario out first (These quotes are as accurate as I can remember, and may be subject to dodgy-ness):

~Warren, Tif and I standing inside the Village Diner. I admire Tif’s newly heated up hot jam donut~

“Wow Tif, that looks really good.”
“Indeed it is. Only 2 for 3 dollars. It’s got hot jam in it.”
“Oh, I’m so getting one.” ~turns to warren~ “Do you want get one?”
”Nah it’s fine.”
”Oh, I won’t bother getting one then.”
”But if you want one, I’ll split the other one with you.”
”Nah it’s okay if you don’t want one.”
”Nah, I’ll have it!”
”Don’t worry about it!”
”I’m getting one, you want one?”
”Nah I’m fine.”
”JEEZ DAVID, JUST SAY YES IF YOU WANT ONE.”
“…okay, I want one.” *whimper*
“If everyone just told the truth, the world would be so much better.”

And hence started the great debate of the truth.

I started thinking, how can everyone speak the ‘truth’. I mean, if there was just a single easy truth, wouldn’t everyone be doing it? And I guess we are up to an extent. Everyone will say, roses are red or the sky is blue. Cause it’s the simple truth. But then, put it into the above scenario. What was the truth in that case? Did I simply just want a jam donut, and was being a loser by trying to dodge it? Or was there something more?

In this context, this is more of an opinion vs truth case. The outcome was that I did want a jam donut, and perhaps that was the truth. But what was I thinking through out that debate? If Warren did not want one, then I did not want him to suffer having to eat the delicious jam donut just because I wanted one. Hence, I declined to have one. Also, perhaps I wasn’t THAT interested in having a jam donut. So when Warren did not desire to have a delicious hot jam donut, maybe I realised, hey I don’t really want one either. So you can see, the truth is not really that simple.

Therefore, I proposed that we couldn’t always just simply speak the truth, because sometimes truth is perceptive, and hence not generally agreed on by everyone. Tif also stated (somewhere along the lines of) that there is one truth in the world, even if we don’t realise it. This not only strengthened my theory, but also led me to think about it in religious terms.

Now we travel onto a more rocky ground, where it comes into faith vs truth. I’ve heard often that when people believe in one religion, it is because they truly believe that it is the ONE true religion…which makes sense I thought. But then how do we know it is the true religion? Each religion has it’s own ‘evidence’ that cause people to solidly believe in their religion, but yet there are so many of them. Again, not a single truth, but a perceptive one.

I guess in the end, I came to see how Tif’s theory could work. In the first scenario, I could’ve stated: No I don’t want one anymore because I don’t want to make Warren have one just because of me. But that would be quite a long conversation, in which probably would’ve led to another argument (No it’s okay, I want one…etc.). But I suppose…

I’m done thinking about this now.

On an ending note, the trip to drive through cinemas was unbelievably fun and uncomfortable. I think I’m liking these late night outings that seem to becoming more and more frequent…thanks for the fun guys.

teohsulfate.

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Saturday, May 17, 2008

Post 101!

Instructions: Remove 1 question from below, add in your personal question, making it a total of 20 questions. Then, tag 8 people in your list, list them all out at the end of this post. Notify them in their chatboxes that he/she has been tagged.

1. At what age do you wish to marry?

The age in which I’ve fallen in love with someone long enough to make me think: heck, why not make it permanent?

2. What are your 3 main priorities in life?

Good education -> Good job
Family and loved ones
Friends

3. What's your favourite thing to do?

Music
Reading
Gaming
Talking with friends

4. Do you think money can buy happiness?

Well, there can be materialistic/temporary happiness or there’s true happiness. Money can’t buy the latter

5. When was the last time you regretted doing/not doing something?

Just today, I regretted doing something last year that led to my position now.

6. Do you believe you can survive without money?

Not in this world. Wouldn’t it be great if we went back to the old days, where people used their skills to trade for things that they needed. It was a nice neat little system. I would so be like, a blacksmith. Then I would be tank. And I would have swords. Then who needs money?

7. What are you afraid to lose the most?

My friends and family

8. If you win $1 million, what would you do?

I would…give it to my family. I’m not responsible enough to decide what to do with it. I would imagine it would be invested, some charity, and such.

9. If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?

I’m replacing this question (wild card, go!)

9. What’s the scariest dream/nightmare you’ve had?

Sleeping -> dreaming off dying young -> waking up, falling over -> waking up again, not knowing whether or this was a dream or not.

10. List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you.

Best friend. No more needed.

11. What are the requirements that you wish from the other half?

That I love her, and she loves me.

12. Which type of person do you hate the most?

The inconsiderate ones.

13. What is your ambition?

Meet a girl, get married, have a family, and a decent job to let me have a few materialistic things

14. If you can teleport once, where would you go?

I wouldn’t mind travelling back in time or in the future.

Or if we were talking physical kind of dimension…I would use it to sleep in until 7:59am and then teleport to my morning lecture. One day of sleep in, woohoo! (I'm really tired atm)

15. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?

Being happy. And in that, I could mean making someone special feel happy, would make you feel happy. So just happiness and contentment all around.

16. What did you do earlier today?

Got my retainers. I sssspeak like thissss now. Boy I hate orthodonticsssss.

17. If you have a chance, which part of your character would you like to change?

Maybe change my hair style (the same since 1990). I actually have the chance to do that, and maybe I will in the near future…

18. Who is the person that you can share all your problems with?

I have so many problems, I share them evenly among my two best friends and a few close ones.

19. How do you see yourself in 10 years time?

Looking over to the next cubicle to see what Jason is chuckling at (see below)

20. What else are you doing when you are writing this tag?

Nothing. I dedicated my whole attention to this silly thing.

teohsulfate,

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Wednesday, May 14, 2008

tims turn

1. At what age do you wish to marry?
anywhere between 22 - 26

2. What are your 3 main priorities in life?
My christian walk
Family
Friends

3. What's your favorite thing to do?
Playing tennis gives me this really special sensation and feeling =)

4. Do you think money can buy happiness?
I don't think it can .. although im not sure =/

5. When was the last time you regretted doing/not doing something?
I regret not starting my psychology essay sooner !

6. Do you believe you can survive without money?
No, money is essential, u don't need a lot but u need some.

7. What are you afraid to lose the most?
My best friends
My Gf
My mental health (after learning so much in psychology i just think it's really painful and sad and i really can't imagine how people can live through life with a mental disability.. so my heart goes out towards them)

8. If you win $1 million, what would you do?
I would bank it, give a lot to my family, shower my friends with presents, hehe quit my part time job =) heh.

9. If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?
Yes! regardless of ur situation if u really love this person u just got to tell her/him.. because you will go crazy!!

10. List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you.
Gracie... Hmm what can i say about her?
1) One of my cloest friends! i can tell her anything, she listens really well
2) One of the kindest personality i've ever met
3) I admire her faith and her passion and love the lord

11. *i changed this one =) - Are u afaird of the future? life outside Uni?
YES! im nervous uni seems to be going really really fast already! i don't want to leave and i just started!!

12. Which type of person do you hate the most?
Im working really hard not to hate people... but some traits that i don't like are
1) people who fail to even TRY to process another persons thought or idea
2) people who speak on behalf of you.
3) Judgemental people really need to chill out sometimes

13. What is your ambition?
To one day become a psychologist and also to be very fluet and cultured in korean. And to get married and start a family and live happily ever after =)

14. If you can teleport once, where would you go?
South Korea! to like Big Bangs concert or Wonder Girls ahhah!

15. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
God
Family
Friends

16. What did you do earlier today?
Uni, spent time with friends, spent time with my girlfriend, played tennis, and OMGosh!! need to start my psych ESSAY!!

17. If you have a chance, which part of your character would you like to change?
I don't knowww i like myself... i wish i had a little more self control? i don't know... whenever someone asks me to hang out i always cave in.. and in result my assignment suffers... nooo lol ahhaha, but nah nothing too much because then i just wouldn't be me =)

18. Who is the person that you can share all your problems with?
My best friends and my GF and if it's a really big big big problem my brother is always there for me.

19. How do you see yourself in 10 years time?
married with kids, loving my job! watching korean dramas and listening to music without the need of subtitles lol

20. what else are you doing when you are writing this tag?
listening to music and noww im going to quit and work on my essay =)

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Tuesday, May 13, 2008

RE: grace's tag ["if im bored"] (im always bored)

Instructions: Remove 1 question from below, add in your personal question, making it a total of 20 questions. Then, tag 8 people in your list, list them all out at the end of this post. Notify them in their chatboxes that he/she has been tagged.

1. At what age do you wish to marry?

any number i guess will be arbitary (kind of)
answer: eventually

2. What are your 3 main priorities in life?

serious:
feeling good (not just for me LOL)
friends
and my christian walk

not-so-serious:
taiko
defiantly proclaiming im not a pimp to danny and philip
<3

3. What's your favorite thing to do?
laugh

4. Do you think money can buy happiness?
nah probably not. no property rights to happiness
indirectly, yeah
but id rather 'joy' if you wanna be all political about the definitions

5. If you can have 1 dream to come true, what would it be?
ok, this is the question im replacing
getting rid of this quesiton
5. When was the last time you regretted doing/not doing something?
opening my ds to fix the L button T_T
(LIES, you've regretted things more recently and you know it!)
(shhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh those aren't pure regret)

6. Do you believe you can survive without money?
i did for yr9, every 2 dollars i gained, i spent on ddr (or was it yr10, i can never remember)

7. What are you afraid to lose the most?
my brain (serious)
empathy
and... my memory

8. If you win $1 million, what would you do?
i dont know
probably spend like 50,000 on material goods and give the rest to everybody else

9. If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?
!!
what kind of question is this
who wrote these
did grace put this one in?
err
i try to think it ranks like this: interest (possibly forking into obsession) -> like -> love
and i dont think ive been into the love category, so.. We'll see.

10. List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you.
she consistently misses me a lot (i havent seen you for sooo long, grace)
willing to confide in me (thank you, grace)
and....something general: is good company

11. What are the requirements that you wish from the other half?
feeelup says: IS SHE HOT??
feeelup says: 10/10

ah... maybe not
i like to think i have a loose point system going on:
- being of some kind of vague chinese descent gives several thousand points (not because im racist, but cause culturally familiar, yeah(?) lol)
- i admit your looks can gain you points
- but your personality also gains points more significantly
- smoking is minus several thousand
- swearing a lot is minus a couple thousand
- character is significant, probably more so than personality imo but not by too much
- errr i dunno, this is getting kinda personal, -1000 points for being nosey
- OH!! forget my name after already meeting you several times and you die!! -10,000pts. a little pet peeve of mine :<

12. Which type of person do you hate the most?
i try to think i like everybody.
BUT THAT CHANGES WHEN I GO ONLINE
i hate... randoms in dota
i hate... prepubescent kids in cs
i hate... prepubescent kids in dota..
man im an ass when im gaming

13. What is your ambition?
short-term, purge myself of the procrastination demons
long-term, be happy (yeah its THAT vague, no specific jobs on the perceived horizon)

14. If you can teleport once, where would you go?
ONCE?? one-way ticket??
man i'd just use it straight away and save myself the trouble of thinking about it too much, i dunno, somebody's house/uni/church

oh i guess i could be an ass and say that i'll make a big media frenzy about it, and get paid big bucks to teleport instantly to a location.. maybe? i dunno

is this teleporting through space or time? :S
id rather not consider the prospect of teleporting through time, unless it is forward at a normal rate

15. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
i dunno, ask god what he rkns
im too wishywashy

16. What did you do earlier today?
wake up
change
make half a milo
go to uni
realised i forgot to finish making milo
uni
get confused in statistics lecture
receive korean assignment results
sit in car and think briefly
drive home
ds
irc/dota
irc/copy and paste stuff onto davids harddrive
irc/dota
irc/answer grace's tag

17. If you have a chance, which part of your character would you like to change?
cant imagine it
bad luck, you're stuck with me the way i am

18. Who is the person that you can share all your problems with?
pretty obvious... (clue: i havent been praying to bruce willis lately)

19. How do you see yourself in 10 years time?
i see myself being a 28y/o in an office cubicle chuckling at webcomics

20. what else are you doing when you are writing this tag?
chat on irc and procrastinate concerning an assignment due friday

is that it?

insight!!

i dont tag, i have a phobia

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Friday, May 9, 2008

COOKING!!!




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No context required. RE: It's gold

I wish Opera logged our irc chats, i would post them here too
I'll try my best to reenact one:

...
okay after much typing and backspacing, i find myself unable to reenact a scene to any degree of accuracy.

but they did involve star wars, leah dizon vs hwang mi hee, philip's 10/10, and lots of rage

they were good times
you'll have to take my word for it
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kayfour: dur..dUR.. DURRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!
tatty: wtf is this?
tatty: rage if its starwars
tatty: oh gg
*tatty has left ba.
*kayfour sets mode +b tatty.

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Sunday, May 4, 2008

It's gold.

Wanna know the real Marco? Here's some good examples right here:

- QuiZZie - says:
girls have it so easy
- QuiZZie - says:
hahahahaah
- QuiZZie - says:
besides childbirth

* * *

- QuiZZie - says:
unless you get married
- QuiZZie - says:
and i have to get you guys something
- QuiZZie - says:
:(
||._rj - did he just say ironic to iron man? [R.U.Fs] says:
YOU'RE NOT INVITED
- QuiZZie - says:
LOL GOOD
||._rj - did he just say ironic to iron man? [R.U.Fs] says:
LOL
- QuiZZie - says:
i'd rather go to funerals
||._rj - did he just say ironic to iron man? [R.U.Fs] says:
SO HEARTLESS
- QuiZZie - says:
its much cheaper
- QuiZZie - says:
hahaha

* * *

||._rj - death truss II blown up. [R.U.Fs] says:
oh btw
||._rj - death truss II blown up. [R.U.Fs] says:
erica was telling me
||._rj - death truss II blown up. [R.U.Fs] says:
about the day you were being a jerk
- QuiZZie - says:
rofl i'm always a jerk
||._rj - death truss II blown up. [R.U.Fs] says:
and you were talking about dwarfism?
- QuiZZie - says:
LOL
||._rj - death truss II blown up. [R.U.Fs] says:
and you turned around and fully laughed at her
||._rj - death truss II blown up. [R.U.Fs] says:
JERK
||._rj - death truss II blown up. [R.U.Fs] says:
=p
- QuiZZie - says:
I WASNT
- QuiZZie - says:
i was looking for a
- QuiZZie - says:
mutual acknowledgement
- QuiZZie - says:
LOL
- QuiZZie - says:
and then
- QuiZZie - says:
i just burst out laughing
- QuiZZie - says:
hahahahah




LOL.

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Thursday, May 1, 2008

YATA!~




PASSED MY P'S


That is me ditching my driving instructor forever!!! Hurrah!

Edit* I'd just like to say thanks to all those who gave me much needed encouragement and support. Thanks to Ling, Fi, Tiffa, and Anthea all who sent me an sms in the morning, and generally all those people I complained to about my crappy driving.

teohsulfate,

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